There are times that I don’t do things. There are many times when I don’t do things. I think I’m lazy. I think that I could make better use of my time. I think that I will be judged by others.
Earlier this month I made the choice to try and watch very little to no television during the month of September. So far – over 21 days I have watched television two times, pretty good. I have read more, got more projects done, planned things, worked out more. I haven’t written that novel I want to write. I have not written that album of songs that are dying to come out of me. I have not changed the world in a dramatic way…
I have started to meditate – only 10 minutes a day is the goal. I have worked out three times a week for the past two months. I have started to journal more.
When I first started this website – over 10 years ago – I pictured a place to write freely. I don’t. I worry too much about how what I say and write can be perceived. This is the thing when one works with children for a living. When one is the face of an organization. When one knows the affect that one’s actions can have on the larger picture.
I need to write more. I need to express. I need to be human.